Catch for Us the Foxes

"Catch for Us the Foxes" by mewithoutYou is an amazing album. Something about Aaron Weiss' lyrics always touch me. Right now it is the song "The Soviet", about a man who is struggling with selfish love and lust.

As the night-time shined like day it saw my sorry face and hair a mess
But it liked me best that way... besides, how else could I confess?
When I looked down like if to pray,
Well, I was looking down her dress... good God!


But I really like how it ends.

I don't need this



And I guess, if I had to really explain how I am feeling right now, I'd use someone else's words (as I often do) because I am too exhausted to write any more.

I've been coasting on this single's route
But I still hear your name in wedding bells
...you're the only proper noun I need

Note to self

...singing in Tom Waits' voice to Beatles' songs on "BeatleRockband" will net you a 58% on Easy. Also, it doesn't help if you make up words and maybe shout out like Lil John does.

Also, I was on fire last night with zazzy comments. I just wish I could remember them this morning.

Marie Catribs is the best breakfast place, hands down.

I have some very lovely friends.

Getting shitty drunk sucks. Drinking to the point of a nice buzz or an in-control level of being drunk is pretty sweet.

Gin, splash of Absinthe, tonic water, splash of lime, on ice...that's a tasty drink. The Absinthe really zazzes it up.

Christmas shopping is a load of bollocks.

Having nicknames for people is awesome.

French people talk like ducks who have a cold.

I love you all.

Die tonight, live forever

If we all should die tonight
We will have no regrets
(we can't go back, we can't go...)

So the Winter comes again

A perfect night.
I went to the gym, had and hour off, went out to a Retirement home with 2 of my friends.
(it was harder than I thought it would be)
Went out to dinner with two guys who I love
Have plenty of leftovers for the weekend
Listened to music while watching the snowfall
Housemate came back and we walked for a long while in the fresh snow
(perchance some flasks were involved)
Big snowflakes are always more beautiful at night
Now I'm at home with that tiredwarmsatisfied feeling
Houston Calls singing me to sleep
And I think is that I can't wait until...


"Made in Moonlight" - Houston Calls

Snow pours down a white coat on the town
footsteps the only sound out on the street (Warwick Avenue).
Next to me Alex treads so softly he has the same feeling
Serenity.

What happened to me inside
It's like I was revived
I'm so glad I came.

When you dance with the Devil, you don't change the Devil...the Devil changes you.

Apologies...

I'm sorry, but I feel like I talk about music on virtually every post on this blog. But I was sitting here listening to a mix cd my friend gave me Freshman year, and the song "What Sarah Said" by Death Cab for Cutie came on, and I teared up. It just broke me back to last February when a friend of mine was in the hospital unexpectedly, and it was one of those situations where you don't know if they are going to be alright.

And it came to me then
That every plan is a tiny prayer to Father Time

And I remember being at the hospital and being kicked out of her room and forced to sit in the waiting room. And even at that time, I remembered just how much I hate waiting rooms. Terrible magazines, terrible TV shows, terrible coffee. The unknowing. The sense of helplessness.

Amongst the vending machines and year-old magazines
In a place where we only say goodbye
It stung like a violent wind that our memories depend
On a faulty camera in our minds

I've been in that place before. Senior year, 3 of my good friends were in a car accident. One of them was fine and my girlfriend of the time got quality treatment, but when I walked into the waiting room, I saw one of my best friends with eyes red from crying, cuts on her face from the accident, just looking helpless...and the hospital wouldn't admit her because she didn't have the right kind of insurance.

'Cause there's no comfort in the waiting room
Just nervous paces bracing for bad news
Then the nurse comes around and everyone lifts their head
But I'm thinking of what Sarah said
That love is watching someone die

Fuck waiting rooms. If I am ever in a life or death situation, where it is touch and go as to whether or not I am going to live, fuck what doctors/nurses say, come into my room and be with me. Honestly, I don't know why they kick family and friends out. You can get them scrubbed down/sterilized enough to be in the room. If I ever end up in the hospital due to something serious...honestly, the thing that would be the best cure for me is seeing the people I love.

So who's going to watch you die?

I am not good at dealing with death. I've lost all of my grandparents, two of whom I was pretty close with. A friend of mine was killed just this past Spring. Death sucks. And after someone I know dies, I shut down for a couple of weeks and totally withdraw.
But.
I would give anything to be with those people at the time they passed away. To be able to say goodbye. That I love them.

When I feel down

Sometimes, I feel down, overwhelmed, lost, apathetic, useless, like a failure. Like I just took a big hit, and I don't know if I'll be able to get back up.
But there is a certain song that always helps me keep things in perspective.

"Life Won't Wait" - Houston Calls


Yea, I’ve got four controllers and four good friends
We keep it real until our lives all end
Whatever was I thinking?
The best times of my life are just beginning

And when I hear those lines, I always remember - I have some great friends, and we are down to earth...so why am I freaking out so much? Life is worth living, and I am truly living in one of the best times of my life. And it seems like things just keep getting more awesome everyday.